The Dream Catcher

One Friday night I’m deeply asleep. Suddenly, I was awaken by the sudden unbearable heart beats and countless droplets of sweat. Bad dream has conquered the deepest thought of my unreachable imagination. Creeping through ideas and linked in by worries. The correlation of emotional stress and sudden change mood in addition to bad weather has urge me to divert the pointless chaotic dreams by merging happy thoughts and good vibes brought to me by the said dream catcher. At last sweet dreams will be mine.

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A Gift

Someone asked me to give her a gift. She has everything she needs. Nothing to ask for. So, I thought this piece out of my poor potential as a frustrated artist would be good. I hope she’ll like it. It was her daughter’s portrait. I made it using my bare hands. Happy Birthday. I wish you all the best. We didn’t end up together but our friendship should stick together. Same old, same old.

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A beauti-FULL Mind

I know several people with pretty faces, a perfect physique and good lifestyle. And I can’t help but noticed three common things amongst them. Most of them doesn’t have the audacity of a complex reasoning, hypothetical thinking and comprehensive statement. To make it clearer, most of them shows ignorance and apathetic behavior.

With that being said, I would like to share a real-life experience happened a few years back when I was in College.

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I have a friend, she called herself Ally, because her full name was Alyssa Marie Cuaresma, she has this boyish actions and way of thinking. She’s smart, diligent and a good daughter. To tell you the truth, she’s not physically admirable, but she’s not an ogre or the like. What I like about her is the way she see things on her own perspective. She isn’t the type of person you’re willing to spend an afternoon to talk to. She has this weird aura and an out-this-world opinions with the things going on around her. And I bet you’ll have more of an argument rather than a chit-chat when you get started to converse with her. She’s doing good academically, not quite good in sports as she preferred to stay at home doing weird stuff such as sketching, creating a blog, spending much time on a forum which I’m also a member and reading MANGA (Anime comic book series).

She is one of my closest friend ever in College. We influenced each other in terms of hobbies and arguments. She always sketch in class, which is good since I also am a frustrated artist. On the other hand, I’m a geek and know a lot about modern technologies, hacking and web developing. We shared hobbies and that made me eager to pursue being a frustrated artist by doing sketches, especially portrait, whereas she made a career in web developing and hacking. We even tried to influence one more people in our group, unluckily he didn’t make it.

I shared this experience because I considered her one of the people I know with a beauti-FULL mind. Complex reasoning, a very complicated and argumentative behavior with all the sense you needed. Hypothetical thinking, she also has that, not only she’ll give you reasons, but she’ll only elaborate the cause and effect of it. And lastly, comprehensive statement, she’s never a poet, but talking to her is like Shakespeare reincarnated. She’s a lady with pride, not a man but had an ego like one. She always stand corrected and she never argued on things she incorrectly perceived. She knew how to admit mistakes and never duel on things to get out of trouble.

A beautiful mind line by Nash goes like this “What truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. I have made the most important discovery of my career – the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reasons can be found.”

To you my friend, I dedicate this. From the award winning movie “The Beautiful Mind” – “Friends are an integral part of your life, but every friend you have must live life at their own pace. When the time comes & they must leave you, there is no need to grieve over their parting from your life. It is the very essence of life that it should be so. But it hurts nonetheless and we grieve nonetheless, but we hold them in our hearts forever. Always cherish the joy, laughter, memories and love that they have brought into your lives. Always remember them with a warm smile for what they have given you.”

 

Missing you cliqueker 🙂

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Fool’s Paradise

A friend of a friend told me, that he’s happy that I don’t easily judge people. Very simple. People whose always been misjudge are the people who truthfully understand the perfect scenario of misjudgement. Hence, the same scenario is not likely to happen amongst them.

A strangely scraped cliche goes like this, “Don’t judge the book by its cover.”.

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I’ve always been caught in a worse situation like this. That I even hoped I did what they’ve thought I did in the first place just to prove them right and end the commotion. But doing such will not make me the person I am.

I cried a lot when I was misjudged by the person I really owed a lot. My Aunt, whom I treated a mother, a second mother to my Mom. I don’t give a fuss for the tumult they’ve created toward my reputation, but the FACT that THEM (Her and the whole family), of all peoiple will be the people to misjudge me. And it pains me a lot knowing that the people who raised me to becoming the person I am, will caused paranoia deep within me.

Gone are the days with hate. I moved on. They’re all forgiven even before they dit it. Nonetheless, forgiven doesn’t mean forgotten. They’ve already lost the respect they’ve earned from me. They’ve made a long lasting scar which isn’t visible, transparent and pellucid or whatever you describe it.

 

Let he who is without sin, cast the first stone”

BOOM!

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Out of nothing – I’ve made something

Out of nothing - I've made something

At the office one evening. I can do nothing. System issues made my evening worth. First time I tried painting using MS Paint. And Voila!

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Attention Please

I’m always wondering why I wasn’t given much attention amongst my family. I mean, I must not because I don’t need it. But then again, it was my curiosity asking myself why.

I’ve got all the reason to be noticed, to be given applause, moral support, encouraging words and all those optimistic praises I deserved. I’m a gifted child. When I was 4, I used to be a fast reader in English and Filipino. I created an extraordinary work of art of Jesus Christ when I was 5. I recited the pledge on our kinder graduation since I got the highest honor, along with 4 other awards like Best in religion, Best in arts, Best in reading and Writing. I even gave an intermission number reciting a poem in front of the crowd. When I entered the primary school, I always excel in the class, leaving the best impression to my teachers. I became a dancer on my 2nd grade, a member of musical band on the 3rd grade, a member of choral group on my 4th, an academic contender and a chess player on the 5th and last grade. I’ve got all the achievements I needed to caught my family’s and relatives’ attention. But NO, I haven’t and I never did.

It was my grandparent’s attention I’m longing to catch. I never had their attention ever since. They all have their favorite grandchild and that’s not me, not even a shadow of me. I always convince myself that its alright, nothing to worry about since I don’t need to catch their attention anyway. However, there’s a part of me seeking for their rightful time that they will somehow notice me. And I’ve proven myself wrong. Up until now that I just turned fully adult and independently living my life, I failed to even have a bit of their time.

I knew it by the time I turned 5, when my mother told me that I won’t be the apple of their eye ever. I fully understand everything. My mother always explained it to me that its not that they don’t love me at all. She told me or I think she just want to convince me that my grandparents wasn’t that bad at all by saying “son, you just don’t need it since they’re aware that you can get hold of yourself and doesn’t need their advise for any situation you might get involved, because your smart”. Well, I took that as a compliment to avoid getting rid of my love for them. And I didn’t. My mom was right, I can get hold of myself and won’t be needing anyone else’s advise. I’m smart, strong and independent. I believe that they have this unusual reason that I don’t understand.

It wasn’t a big deal for me anymore. I guess I just got used to it. For whatever reason they have, that’s fine with me. Whether they would notice me or not. I’ll always be their unnoticed grandson loving them truthfully.

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First Ever – WordPress

This is an introduction to my very first WordPress blog.

I am Ger Geo(pen name), not most people knew me. I’m hidden beneath the thick crowd of mass people in the street. I don’t wanna get out of the crowd because I’m afraid cops might put me again on jail.

I’m not a real prisoner, I’m an activist of Human Rights particularly Teenage Rights. I belong to a society where Adult people ruled out Teens. I’m not a teenager anymore, I recently lost the title some years ago. I’m an artist, I can write, draw, dance, sometimes when in the mood can sing. Most importantly, I am a Vindicated Prisoner.

This is my blog and this is how I write. Enjoy reading and feel free to criticize. I’m open for those whether constructive or even destructive.

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